I have been thinking about “change,” and who I was this time 21 years ago. I know I was a lot more, soft, timid, and I allowed lots into my life. I am no longer that person anymore.
This time 21 years ago, I was waiting on a call that I thought was never going to come. And now, I am making the call.
I do not know exactly when I changed, or how, but I know at some point, between cutting my strings, escaping my cage, and building my wings, I set myself free. “I have made mistakes I can never rewind and I have excuses that you will never believe” and when I think back on this phrase, it is the one meaning that gives me confidence and alerts me that “I AM NOT PERFECT” and to me perfectly “IMPERFECT ” makes me GREAT deep within me.
I have driven many roads, some of them with dangerous sharp bends, but one thing I experienced along the way is that “the BOULEVARD to TRIUMPH was DUSTY with many enticing stopping bays.” At certain crossroads, I felt there is something I needed to do which I should have done many years ago. I got rid of a streams of connections and they fell out because I shook the branches of my life, and am glad I did.
My hardest regrets are the days spent with the wrong flow of peeps. I learned my lessons, I passed my exams, and I am glad I went through them all, and when I look back on the years, they all make sense to me.
And here I am today, standing my grounds, strong, intelligent, mature and experienced. I progressed from them all. It was not easy, it was hard, but I did it, and I can tell you, I have become a well tough person and still good at heart! I have made the best decisions, and at some points, I have reached a certain parts of my goals in life, though there “maybe” still more to achieve, I am happy where I have reached. Am loving “what I have” and I don’t worry about “what I don’t have.” I AM WHO I AM!
But I know something for sure, “Someday, someone’s going to look at me like I am the best thing in the world.” It is like I want to say that “I cannot be good enough for everybody, but I will always be the BEST for the ones who deserves me!”
The best gift I gave to the people who came and left was my HEART because I gave them a place where there was LOVE, and it made me realised that my dream will defeat reality if I give it a chance. Within the boundaries of my experiences, I learned never to tell my problems to anyone, because the reflection I see from my mirror is the only person who can put me back on track.
Whenever I am in conflict with the ocean I set up my sail stronger, and I know that it is ME vs THE WINDS and no one else.
And where the “WINDS” will take me, I shall GO! (Please note that writings and pictures belongs to My Country Epoque and it is my original property)